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So I'm doing well. School is hard and stressful, as usual. But I'm content.
I think know i have to go to summer school for two classes. It' is really going to be boring. I hope and pray to which ever god is listening, that they put me and my friend Matt in the same school and class, because i don't want to be stuck by myself, in some other school with scary, mean people I don't know(we have to go for the same two subjects, English and Biology).
My home life has gotten a little better. My sister's friend, Vanessa, moved out, so I got my bed back.^.^ Other than that, nothing else has really changed.
My mom is making me see a psychiatrist, because I'm in denial about my problems....I'm not in denial. I know i have problems, but I see no reason to talk about my problems to a lady I don't know and who doesn't know me. Also even if i did fell like talking, my problems won't go away. All of my problems have to do with my mom and my brother, and my mom won't send my brother away to a correctional facility, and obviously my mom wont leave.
It's impossible!!
I Can't stand or understand how my once beloved friends can change sooo much and not show love or affection for me any more. I still love them, I miss them and they are the only one to brighten my day. My two favorite twins are, well lets just say are "maturing", and my once loved friend is now spreading rumers and lies about me and Amanda, and then lies about it to our face. My friend Daniel is still very argumentive but is now cursing allot. I can't tell three of my best friends something without them unfairly judging me, and they were never like that.
for the past month i have cried my self to sleep every night, or I do not sleep at all.
that was a bit of a song that i learned in kindergarden, it was stuck in my head all day today.
~R-E-D- RED, R-E-D RED, I CAN SPELL RED, I CAN SPELL RED, FIRETRUCKS ARE RED, STOP SIGHNS ARE RED TOO, R-E-D, R-E-D!~
TODAY WAS OUR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL BACK FROM THE WEEK OF EXAMS AND A 4 DAY WEEKEND. EVERY ONE SEEMED REALLY ANGRY OR OVERLY HAPPY. IT WAS SCARY. WELL I GOTS TO GO CUZ MY MOM WILL KILL ME IF I'M NOT OUT SIDE BY 4:30...AND IT IS NOW 4:27 ...4:28. K BYE ^.^
This whole week we had to take exams and we get out at 12:40, Most people are extremely happy about it, I'm also happy that I don't have to be in school, but I hate going home. I'm always critesised and put down and I feel completly hated. I'd rather be with my meanest of my so called friends than go home. but when ever I ask my mom if I could go outShe says that I always go out and I need to stay home and learn to be nicewith others and learn to deal with my problems instead of running away. So why would I want to go back? what ever i do to be nice goes unnotticed and when I do somthing a little mean or a say somthing sarcastic I get in trouble. I get yelled at when I don't clean the whole house, but when I do clean I don't get any prais or I still get yelled at for not doing something right.
I got kicked out of my bed room(I shared with my sister) so My sister's friend could live with us (She ran Away)and they gave her my bed.I now sleep in the living room on an air matress, most of my stuff is crammed in the living room and they don't have any respect for my things. they mess with them and destroy them. My painting (that required alot of work and effert) was ruined because my mom "accidentually" spilled water o it!
Hello again! I'm back after a while. I havn't been able to use the computer for a while so obviouly i couldn't log on to vox. School is getting really extremely stressfull and I wish i could just spend time having fun with friends...but i can't because of school!>.<
My New Years Resolution is to be nicer to everyone,and not so sarcastic.
My other resolution is to pass all my classes and not be so lazy, or such a procrastinator.
V.V Sadly i've already said something mean to someone, So i really have to work on it!
I'm in pain.
I hurt both of my anckles on saturday while @ Colepark (public park) and I keep walking on them and the pain just keeps getting worse.
I miss my ragdoll raven,
I miss all my beloved friends from my old school,
and i miss my sanity.
and I semm to be taking it all out on my friend Andi T_T
(Sorry Andi)
I'm tired and I need a break from my life. I seem to have lost all my happy energy(thats what school does to me)I can't wait for the christmas break!
O.k. i'm back and i'm bord! k... bye now.
I Think my bestest buddy Kat was angry at me today I just can not figure out why. I don't know if T.O.M. is visiting her and she is just p.m.s.ing or if I did something to make her mad. Either way I feel horrible about it.
Although I'm still happy about my weekend! I had fun with my friends Krause, and andi, and chip. And I still have bruises all over my legs for running and falling over & off of things, and tripping, and flipping over things. Plus from all the walking i did.
K. bye now .
Hey, this is a question that really makes you think
If you, your bestest friend, and your one-true-love were captured by a soul reaping demon type creature, and you decide to reasone with him. And after a while of reasoning he gave you the choice of you and one other going free while the other one will have to stay to become soulless. Wich one would you save and wich will you leave rendered to be soulless and an empty vessel forever? Why?
I would never be able to choose between my best friend and my one-true-love. So I would offer myself to stay behind while the other two were set free.
